New Year, New Me... and all that kinda shit.
I've been meaning to blog for a while now. I keep coming up with different topics but I never think any of them are interesting enough to get you to click on them. Which makes me feel kinda dumb because this blog is supposed to be for me. This gets me into the topic of social media and why its annoying me so much lately...
I found that I've been programmed into thinking FIRST what other people may like before my own opinion. This friggin' sucks when you're trying to be yourself and show people who you are. In my position with over 2 milli followers.. I feel the pressure man. People are so vocal on their opinion of me and they can be cruel which makes me extremely insecure.
If you know me.. I don't have the toughest skin. If you insult me, I believe the insult. I consider it as the truth. Im not confident enough in every department to say that you're wrong. That's something I've been working on for a while now. So for the "New Year, New Me" I'd like to change that. I'd like to be more confident in who I am and not let social media affect that.
I want to take a turn because all that is a little negative. I'm honestly just typing quickly right now. Spilling anything that comes out. I wanted to do that with this particular blog so its not calculated. I don't really want to go back and spell check. I want to treat this like a diary.
It's been a odd year for me. Everything is pretty perfect. I say that because I see a lot of hurt in the world and to me.. my problems are really tiny compared to others. Im so grateful for every single thing. My friends. Every little sale I get for my store. I'm in a healthy relationship and I'm learning how things were always supposed to be..
Things are so fuckin' clear man. I can hear God when He speaks to me. Which is pretty cool. And I don't mean "hear" like an actual voice. I mean hear like feel what He wants me to do. What He's moving me away from and etc. And at this point.. I know if I don't listen, its on me. So I listen and I obey and everything has been going pretty good. Like scary good.
Anyhoo.. I'm supposed to be answering emails right now but I wanted to touch base here first. How are you guys? Any topics you want me to talk about? Talk to me..